Please bare with me as this may be the first time I have been able to vent about my diabetes to others.
Where do I start for 14 years i have struggled with coming to terms with my Diabetes. For the first 6 years since I was diagnosed I have had immaculate control due to my dad being on top with everything. After that I have managed to stay on track with my Glucose readings and have been very lucky with them.
To be honest I am quite scatter brained right now and I don’t even know where to start. I am surprised that I had actually signed up to a forum to talk to others.
Although I have managed to keep good control of my Diabetes it has taken a major emotional toll on me mentally. I now suffer from major anxiety issues due to Diabetes. I became and acrophobiac and had to drop out of high school. I was always an out going person, a jock and was headed in the right direction of life. It still hit me hard I lost friends, but managed to battle back and fully reverse the acrophobia and finish high school. I am now in my final year of college finishing architecture technology. I have a great girlfriend and family that support me, but yeah i still have not come to terms with my diabetes. I take care of it with insulin and glucose management but yet I am neglecting it by not fully accepting yet.
I feel lost and afraid with my future, I am nervous about complications due to diabetes and handling them, I’m just to put it in simple words scared to death. I know alot of others feel this way but it is the first time i have expressed myself to others.
I am not really sure where i went with all of this. I guess it’s more so mangled thoughts and shock. I apologize to everyone if my post is out of whack and not straight forward.