I’m afraid it’s out of control

Hi,
I’m a type 2 diabetic using Novolog and Levemir. I’ve had some high numbers for some time, but no complications yet. For about a year I’ve been on the insulin. Today I took about 99 units of Novolog for my meals to bring the numbers down from high 300’s to hopefully under 200. I take 60 units of Levemir twice a day, too.
Some of this insulin rejection is because I have bipolar and take Abilify – I’ve taken Seroquel and Zyprexa in the past, both which are very diabetic causing drugs.

I’m scared, and am planning on living like each day is my last, because my numbers are off the charts, and it seems like the more the doctors try and regulate the insulin, the worse things get.

Any encouragement would be appreciated.

-Doug